Monday, July 5

For me, For you.

Kepada yang rapat, tahu lah details tentang beberapa perkara yang berlaku pada saya sepanjang separuh 2010. Cause they were there too, lending me shoulders to cry on, witnessing every single tears that came running down my cheek. Thank you. Dari sudut luarnya,mungkin semua nampak bahagia, with smiles and laughters.

Separuh berlalu leaving me unhappy. Betullah orang kata, semakin tua, kita semakin matang. You came across problems. Big problems. Yang mungkin when you are 15, or 16, tertinggal bas balik from school is big enough for you to handle.

My body was shaking in the meeting. I swear if it's not because of amazing souls who waited outside, i didn't even have the strength to speak and did the explanation. Thank you again, for just being there.

Cumanya saya belajar walau sekecil mana tindakan yang diambil, semuanya dihitung. Tak kira if they were sins or good deeds. Betullah kata Dia, walau sekecil zarah dosa sekalipun nanti akan dikira.

Penilaian dunia pun saya sudah sebegitu gentar, apatah lagi bila tiba masa dijemput Dia nanti. Scary.