Semalam I rasa I mimpi you lah!

ai tak tahu lah kenapa bila exam je, ai mesti rasa nak makan serba serbi.

pergi dapur mesti i geladah kotak cereal amik dua tiga keping wheat thin.kurang kurang i makan kurma ain bawak untuk bulan puasa lepas yang sekotak lagi tak habis.

wow, gila berkhasiat makanan ai. kurma tu.

i rasa soalan fizik tadi susah gila sampai i jawab macam rasa nak ulang,"what the heck" 1000 kali. i rasa macam nak baling je kalkulator tu kat lecturer i. tapi i pendamkan je niat suci murni i tu.

i ada lagi satu exam rabu ni.
lepas tu i nak main wii puas puas. ceh,macamlah i ada wii.

takpelah,i main wii dalam mimpi je lah.

wow.menariknya mimpi ai!

Another girl alone in the bar.

Entahlah.
This week has been a drag and eventually next week will feel like forever.

Tell me have you ever feel like talking to a stranger?

I do.I wish there's someone who don't know my name,where I came from,don't know that milk tea boba is my current obsession,don't have a clue that I listen to Athlete and Default and how my tears rained down to My Sister's Keeper.

Someone who is a total stranger.

Let out everything that keeps on bugging. Sharing thoughts. Dancing like there's no tomorrow. Tell the darkest secret you've been keeping all this while. Tell the most sinful sin you've done that you regret for all your life.

When you feel like talking to someone, answer me, who would you call?

Whatever.
This is crap.

I'm just having pre-exams crazy syndromes with 2 papers waiting for next week and to rewind, 3 were done last week.

Awesome.Now I feel special.

Hehs?

Autumn Sangat Cantik

Musim Luruh '09
Credit: Ain's Camera

I know what is going on.

My Friday was a long day. I walked out from the door into the chilly breeze of autumn morning and came back to find myself soaked up in a drizzling dark night with unpleasant smell of the soggy soil.

It's good that I don't have any exam coming up next week. This is my only weekend where I can sleep as much as I want without thinking of the shit load burden of school. I've been restless and running around the clock and it feels so long that I haven't had a real good night sleep.

Living in this body, in this girl's body, in my body, is never easy. Some jeans and shirts are left unworn, no longer able to accommodate this figure I'm currently carrying. Yes, an imagination of a pile of clothes stacked in a box,untouched,covered with dusts is helpful, in case if you need to picture the whole idea.

It is no joke, neither a complain, nor a frustration. It is a wake up call.
Surrounded by people who are attentive enough to notice a slight change is great. Now that at least I know. Few told the truth, knock me to do something with that. Few keep on teasing. Few has been supportive.

Hence, I call this as perfection.
Thank you people for letting me know.

in the picture: Kim Kardashian, Just Jared

Your skin is like a porcelain.

It takes two to tango.

You can't do it alone cause it will always takes two, always.
I am amazed by people who can change love like changing diapers, trading love like trading cigarettes.

Was once asked what is building up love and I am clueless.
I fell in love, am in love, want to be in love.

God and me.You and her.She and him.Mother and son.Father and daughter. We are all in love.

Tapi cinta kamu kepada dia atas dasar apa. Cinta, suka suka atau nafsu?

Kamu sayang dia tapi bila dia bilang dia suka Jennifer Love Hewitt, terus kamu tarik muka. He loves you in skirt and high heels, but you turned him down by wearing sneakers and jeans.

Perlu ke bila bercinta perlu ada taste yang sama? You order mango smoothies so I want to follow youuu. You wear red so mine must be red too. I watch Glee so you have to check it out too.

We have each other so we can rule the world. You and me and we have a room for two. You and me so lets us swim in the deep sea of blanket. Discover me discovering you. Your skin is like a porcelain. Your lips smells like strawberry.Ini semua nafsu.

You are a sinner.
So now tell me where did you put your love to God and parents. Last on the list that you make your lusts go on top?

You are a sinner.
You said you found God but how strong is your love to Him?

Mencari miracle

In not more than 60 minutes, an exam is waiting.

Have read all the chapters and I just can't take it anymore for my eyes feel like blind whenever I try to read them all again, for my head feels like spinning. No more. Not anymore.

Minta pada Tuhan, moga-moga diberi kesenangan sebentar lagi, dibukakan pintu hati dan minda. Diturunkan malaikat penjaga memberi hidayah jawapan mana yang patut dipilih atau ditembak bom bom bom ala kaboom.

Immunology.
It is going to be around 65 questions in not more than 50 minutes. Choices are from A all the way to J.
So, guess I'm going to have so much fun picking up the answers hell yeah, playing around with A B C D E F G H I and J.

May the force be with me.
May the miracle comes.
May angels lead me.

A miracle is needed.

Bawaku terbang.

I am not sure if the snow pouring down outside that makes me nostalgic, or the coldness that it brings that makes me feel like this.

I had a bad day, and you have no idea how shitty it was.

I feel like collapsing into the snow, slowly close my eyes and let my body aimlessly floating around.

I need wings,I want to fly high.

picture credit: ikkroo & Mari

Take me to a place where there's only me and God.

Betullah kata pepatah Inggeris, don't judge a book by its cover.

Yang putih di luar, hitam di dalam no one knows. Yang hitam diluar,putih di dalam Tuhan sahaja yang tahu.

Diluar gelak-gelak, rock rock, high high terus kau dicop perempuan gedik.

Keluar dengan ramai perempuan atas dasar rakan sekerja, dinner dengan Zakiah, ke konsert dengan Siti Sarah, terus kau dicop lelaki buaya darat. Dalam hati,only God knows what's written.

Hidup jangan hipokrit.
Apa yang terzahir itulah yang terkandung di dalam. Tapi kata orang, hidup kadang-kala perlu ada hipokrasi, baru aman. Matilah kalau semua orang yang kau benci kau nak bunuh dengan gun shot. War sana sini.

Aliza benci pada Kassim. Depan Kassim bukan main Aliza senyum senyum bergurau senda. Belakang Kassim, Tuhan saja tahu betapa Aliza mengumpat bagai. Hipokrasi.

Aliza dapat merasakan Aida perempuan gedik. Maka terciptalah geng mengutuk Aida. Depan Aida, semua pijak semut pun tak mati. Siap puji baju raya Aida yang berkilat manik itu cantik lagi. Hipokrasi.

Ini dunia.

We can't run from hypocrisy and being fake. Don't tell me you never came across those situations. Life's like that. Bertalam-talam. At some point, I think we are all puppets in a play where the judge is God, where the story line is nothing but based on our own fantasies.

Cuba lari dari hipokrasi. Cuba zahirkan setulusnya apa yang ada dalam hati. Cuba jadi diri sendiri. Cuba padamkan paksi norma dunia.Cuba jangan membenci. Cuba saling menyayangi.

Because in the end,only God knows.